End-of-term blues

So it’s officially that time of the term again where everyday I just want to ignore the world and crawl into my bed and watch sappy romance movies and drink hot chocolate. Each time someone asks “oh how are you doing?–you look really tired,” I have to suppress the urges to cry and punch them in the face. I want to pretend that this next week of school isn’t worth about 90-100% of each of my class’ final grades.

Almost every class I  spend a solid 15 minutes deciding whether I want to go or stay home and sleep for more than the four hours that I managed to squeeze in the night before. My diet has turned to shit, and my social life is nearly non-existent; I find it the most rewarding and amazingly social thing to sit and have coffee with someone for 20 minutes. I just have to keep telling myself that winter break will be the most amazing break that I’ve yet experienced, and that I only have to get by the next two weeks with the torture of my final presentations and papers to reach that goal.

I’m only comforted by the thought that the pain I suffer now will soon be gone, I will be able to sleep as much as I desire, my friends who I’ve neglected all term due to business of schedule will see me again, those books that have been piling up on my bedside table begging to be read will be, and I can finally get into the holiday spirit with delicious foods and cheer.

BUT what am I doing here, typing this blog instead of my economics research paper on Quesnay’s theory of value as represented in the Tableau Economique? At least I have this grey and rainy day, Mozart’s requiem in D minor, and this cup of tea to relax and yet inspire me to continue with this overwhelmingly stressful workload for the next two weeks.

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Somehow, the first 5 minutes of The Newsroom tells more truth than anyone wants to hear

Ok, so I might have been a little late in catching onto this show. People have been driving me crazy with constant Facebook posts about how great this show was, and about how everyone should go watch it, blah blah blah… I’m always a little leery when it comes to recommended shows, mostly because I don’t appreciate anything that resembles reality TV unless it involves watching it with some girlfriends, eating a carton of ice cream while trying to make ourselves feel better about some life drama. But as I was thinking about this, I remembered that HBO doesn’t tend to air trashy TV, and decided to give it a chance.

Within the first 5 minutes, I knew that I would be watching more of this series, and at least give it a shot. The very first episode opens with some kind of forum with a democrat, and republican, and a news anchor (Will McAvoy, played by Jeff Daniels). There is some kind of emotional drama happening for a couple of minutes, but then the panel are asked by a woman who appears to be in college “Can you say why America is the greatest country in the world?” Will McAvoy answers with basically with what is dictated below:

All too true

I was immediately struck by this two minute rant, and could not help but keep my eyes glued for the next hour and 10 minutes. If anything, I would seriously recommend just watching the first 10 minutes of this episode. The truth spoken here is all too true, and the continuation of his explanation that follows this point cannot be argued. Something that I find so irritating is how people simply choose a political party, and bandwagon-it just so that they can say that they think they know what is happening in politics. Now, I would never say that I’m completely aware of what’s what,  or to understand how everything works, but I do know that before I vote for something or someone that I check up on what it is that I’m really doing. There is nothing that I hate more than someone who will join a party or a stance on something, and then not even be able to explain or argue their case more than “because I said so,”  “because it’s just the right/logical thing to do,” or worse yet “because I’m a republican/democrat/socialist/etc.”

The same logic applies to the question asked on this episode. In America, many of us tend to have this view that because we are American we are better. Yet all around the world, we see equal if not better standards of living, happiness, education, healthcare, economies… the list continues. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I wish that people would use their rationale to come up with views, instead of being lazy and taking the easy (and often unconsciously obtuse) option.

What I mostly appreciated from the first ten minutes of The Newsroom was its brutal honesty, and total bashing of ignorance.

And then I’m reminded why I’m not studying and working towards being a politician: I would always be angry.

I need a job

This week, I’ve been overly frustrated with my failed attempts to even land a job interview. I know that I need a job this summer, so that I can have some source of steady income, reduce my student debt, and hopefully start saving to study abroad for next summer. Why is the Portland job market so bad? If  I’ve never had any experience with food, cash/tills, or professional customer service, then where am I supposed to start? I am always beat out by people who have had much more experience than me.

On Monday, I was called by Starbucks, who said that I could show up to a job fair the following day to be interviewed (alongside every other person who has applied online). I, however, have had RA summer training all this week until 1pm, and had to deny the offer. I was annoyed.

Then, that same day, I was in TartBerry, which is a fro-yo place up by Director Park. I happened to ask if they were hiring, and they said that they were, in fact, hiring for a newer store located on campus, and that I could drop a resume off at the store to be considered. I did just that. I walked into that store and handed over my resume to the owner, trying to show that I was very interested and friendly, and she said to call back within a day or so to see what the status was. I called back two days later, and she pretended like she didn’t know that I had turned in my resume, and then proceeded to tell me “no, we’re not hiring right now. But I’ll keep your resume on my desk–maybe something will pop up in the future.” In my disappointment, I looked to the PSU job database, and found… job openings for TartBerry! While the thought “what the hell” kept running in my head, I debated calling that lady back, or walking to the store and asking her if she had mistaken my resume. This would not have been a wise choice though, and I’m glad I just kept my disdain to myself.

I just don’t understand how I can’t even land a minimum wage job! My resume, while lacking in excessive professional experience, does have a good GPA shown, an almost annoying amount of leadership qualities and responsibilities, and through the number and variety of activities and skills demonstrates my ability to adapt, learn, and thrive when given the chance. I just wish there was a way that I could convey that to someone who would pay me for a real part-time job.